I am sitting here tonight when I realize that something feels very off, like I am missing something or someone.  Then I realize, I am a bit choked up, cause I miss feeling sat in a way, not really the feeling sad part, but the sad me. It had been soo long since I saw that part of me, that I am feeling the lose. I am not sure if that make any sense at all, but it is the truth and my current reality. I need to do something to say goodbye to that once shell of a girl and celebrate the woman I am.  

TMS and Dr Boz has taken me to new realities that I never knew were possible. I can see and enjoy a bright sunny day and even find appreciation in the cloudy rainy ones.  I have 5 treatments left and I am excited to continue to learn and grow away from the shell of the girl I used to me. I am even willing to list my 5 Gratitudes for today...I am thankful for...

1.   The Lord above that gives us infinite number of chances to learn and grow
2.   For my Son Alec, he amazes me daily
3.   Friends new and old that renew the vow to stay healthy
      - Chad, my angel among us, at least for me
      - Melissa, window cleaner, I can see so much better
      - Matt, Ryan & Craig - So far away but always there cheering me on
      - Dr Boz - for making me feel whole
      - the work folks - for being so encouraging
      - Cindy - for putting reality into words
      - Dave for reminding me to believe in myself
      - Branon & Pam - I cheerleaders from a far (Congrats and much love to you both!)
      - "The Girls"  - Just know that you are out there when I need you!
4.   My Family - they are always there
5.   Most of all; For ME, MYSELF & I - Love me or hate me, you cant take me away from me!